thank you, 2017. here i am, 2018.

thank you, 2017. from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

thank you to the people who came in and out of my life.

thank you to the people i loved and fell out of love with and to those who taught me new ways in which i was capable of loving someone.

thank you to the people who believed in me and believed i was more than just meets the eye. to the people to saw my potential.

thank you to the people who walked with me. sat down and had coffee with me. sat down and cried with me but also rejoiced with me.

2017 was a year of growth. BIG GROWTH. in January of 2017 i had the mindset to just “finish strong” and honestly, keep my head above water. some of the wildest challenges i have ever been faced with came rushing in during 2017; however, i look at those challenges now and say thank you. in 2017, i found what it meant to be redeemed, wholeheartedly. i found what it meant to be TRULY confident with the type of confidence that only comes from the Lord and the type of confidence that cannot be stripped away by worldly means. not to be dramatic, but i made a complete 360 this this year. i went from being a completely submissive people pleaser to a confident independent person and i am BEYOND grateful for that.

2017 came with big emotional, spiritual, and physical changes. i lacked confidence in relationships, my body, and constantly was worried on if i was overwhelming people around me with my faith. i lived the last four months of high school in a constant state of anxiety. anxiety overwhelmed me, but i would say “i’m fine” and place a big smile on my face while calling it “joy.” after graduation, i felt empty. there were weeks where i would just go through the motions of life because i didn’t wake up everyday having to fake joy for anyone. my mask was off, and i felt lost. my lost self then hopped on a bus to go to a Young-life camp in the middle of June and it completely ROCKED MY WORLD! it placed me around people that allowed me to fully be myself while we all confidently lived in the mountains and fell more in love with the Lord for an entire week. from then on out, the summer of 2017 was spent all over from the mountains to the beach to all the in between. it was spent with people who loved me for me and we all got to grow with each other. it was magical to say the least. fast forward to college. to save you from the details, college came with its ups and downs also; but i am MORE than grateful for the group of friends it brought me and all the adventures life has taken us on. i have learned to shape my life around a community who seeks the Lord above all else, while also living fully in the greatness that the Lord has offered us to live in. this year taught me that if not, HE IS STILL GOOD. Jesus is wild and CRAZY good to all of us. this year i fell in love with the Lord in a whole entirely new way, i fell in love with the Lord as my redeemer. and with that, i fell in love with myself in an entirely new way. i fell in love with myself as i am one of the people He loves and redeems.

so, thank you to the people who have shaped one of the most influential years i have lived yet. i wouldn’t be where i am today it if wasn’t for the impact that all of the amazing people in my life have left me and continue to still work in me.

i haven’t forgotten you, 2018. HERE I AM!!!! i declare this year to be a FEARLESS year. the Lord has blessed me with a redeemed and confident heart and i want nothing more than to run into 2018 with that without looking back. i want to run after adventure and declare the goodness of Jesus while doing it!! i am confident that this year will bring big changes, but HERE I AM change! i want to run to the mountaintop with no fear. i pray that fearless ambition pushes me in the greatest and all ways emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

i also pray for you, YES YOU SWEET FRIENDS! i pray for all of your hearts as we ring in this new year. i pray for redemption of any kind, forgiveness, grace, love, ad FULLY LIVING! i pray for your relationships and community and i pray you find acceptance and love in each and every one of them. i pray we all go into this year with zero fear and ALL THE FAITH. let’s wear our confidence this year and show anxiety who’s boss. let’s not strive to please others, but strive to live for the one who loves us unconditionally. let’s strive for unconditional relationships and love unconditionally. let’s be kind. let’s be listeners. let’s be advice givers. let’s be radical and go after what sets our soul on fire. & most of all, let’s not look back.

psalm 118:1-9: 

“Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;

    for his steadfast love endures forever!

Let Israel say,
    “His steadfast love endures forever.”

 Let the house of Aaron say,
    “His steadfast love endures forever.”
 Let those who fear the Lord say,
    “His steadfast love endures forever.”

Out of my distress I called on the Lord;
    the Lord answered me and set me free.
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
    What can man do to me?

 The Lord is on my side as my helper;
    I shall look in triumph on those who hate me.

 It is better to take refuge in the Lord
    than to trust in man.
 It is better to take refuge in the Lord
    than to trust in princes.” 


my heart is thankful for the people, places, adventures, trials, and successes that 2017 brought with it and i am all in for all that 2018 has to bring.

let’s run this, 2018. no fear. all the faith. live the redeemed life with me, yeah?!?!

happy new year!!! *dab*


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